It was like the candle had finally come to the end of its wick and as my wife says, “at the end of the wick there is some dynamite”. One Friday afternoon, negativity bubbling under the surface completely overwhelmed me. The burdens I was carrying crushed me under its weight. My normal level-headed temperament became an out of control roller coaster of mixed emotions and confusion. I was completely unable to function like my usual self. My first response was genuinely the thought, “I think I’m going crazy, I have finally lost my mind!”. But with hindsight I think it’s safe to say I was experiencing burnout.
I was sitting with an old lady in her hospital room after she had surgery. My role was to discuss with her if she would manage at home alone when she left rehab... Then she said something that has stuck with me. “You know there is a big difference between being alone, and being lonely”.
Is there something wrong with me?
When we encounter depression or anxiety we often think “is there something wrong with me?” We can wonder “why is it me struggling like this?”
Often we can be quick to point out how common depression and anxiety is in order to suggest that there is nothing wrong. However, I don’t think this is helpful and can actually fuel the stigma of mental illness. Let me explain…(more…)
Taking antidepressants will not fix depression like taking antibiotics will fix an infection. Antidepressants may be God’s grace to us to help us process our brokenness but there is the risk it will unnecessarily numb us from the pain only making it harder to address the root cause/s of depression.
When life turns upside down
Sometimes life can change for the worse. Family can disintegrate. Loved ones pass away. The dream job or course evades us. A past assault haunts us. Future dreams are crushed by what seems like just bad luck.
Life’s tragedies can plunge us into seasons of pain and in turn, seasons of grief. If we stay there for too long this can manifest into depression.(more…)